POEM #1

I’m trying to find a reason to get up 

The baggage in my heart is still so dark 

Can you unpack it for me?

If I could get rid of all my demons 

If you could cleanse my soul 

Would you come back and give me some sort of meaning or give me nothing at all?

 

I’m trying to find a reason to smile 

And I could fill your mind with all my problems, but shit I know you wouldn’t solve them 

So I might as well give up on that

Unless you could try to save me with a one sided chat

Hey, I only need three minutes

 

I’m trying to find a reason to why I’m so messed up 

I thank you for your patience, but I’m better off alone 

Cause I know that I fucked up and you fucked up and the worlds so fucked, but WHAT? You still want to fuck?

Wait hold up! I want to remember those words you told me first.

What did you tell me? 

 

I’m trying to find a reason as to why I’m stuck in this rut

“You get what you give and you give what you get”, my Grandpa told me last time I was stuck.

I’d like to call this my perfect loneliness 

Can I burn your shit since I get the sense that I’m a “son of a bitch!”

Ha! Now I remember what you screamed at me

 

I mean I must thank you for being so honest with me. 

I know the reason why you’re so quick to get rid of me.

But I got a few questions for you so just listen to me and don’t go kissing my cheek

 

Why am I drowning my liver in all your cheap liquor? 

Where did you get that bump on your head?

Does your Jeep still run?

Am I still the one?

Am I a winner yet?

Has it hit you yet?

 

By the way Jack Daniels says hello

Vodka says I should get your gun

Corona says we’re done 

Where the fuck is your Guinness?

I need that alcoholic wisdom

It still hasn’t hit him yet

I’m feeling hypnotized by the words that you say 

These choices and voices are all in my head

Please stop

Get out of my head 

Morning comes and you’re still in my bed, but you’re still so cold 

I think I need a minute 

 

I’m trying to find a reason as to why you’re no longer familiar 

Is it the darkness in your eyes or that crooked smile?

I wanted to give you time, but you’re not the same 

You told me I’m turning insane.  

Two more lines and then we’ll have our grand finale.

It’s my turn to get in your bed cause you know my weakness

Oh look at the clock! Let’s finish this up with one more shot!

 

I just wish that I could wake up 

I swear those voices of you are always keeping me up 

You keep telling me that I should give up 

Lately I’ve been on the backseat of life 

Trying to take control, but you got your hands on the wheel

Don’t try to steer. Please let me take the gear.

Park my thoughts into the parts of your head

Drive in with the force of your lovely words

I don’t want to be sad anymore 

Go ahead. Crash the car darling. 

My time is finished and I finally found the reason to let you go 

Isn’t that lovely?

This is the end to my perfect loneliness.

 

POEM  #3

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